Morbidity and Mortality

Paranoia. We live in paranoia where transient lives filter every molecules confined in space. Mortality is either brought by natural causes (calamities, diseases, etc.) or the not-so natural ones (murder, accidents, etc.). We never really know what could become of life after death. And why am I talking about this abomination? Well, morbidity is my lunch.

Paranoia. When I die, I was thinking it would be either due to drowning, hit by a speeding bus, airplane crash, eaten by a shark after a ship sank, or abducted by aliens and will never be heard of ever again (I just made up the 'aliens thing' because it is way too cool), but never by a degenerative disease or a virus/bacteria contracted from a passenger in a jeepney. I always thought my death would be something very sudden, something I could never prepare for, like accidents or alien abduction. That's why I am so paranoid. I might get a disease right now and know my exact day of death, that's way too uncool. I can't imagine the dialogue I will have with my family and friends, all the sobbings, the sniffs, the sobs. Although I look good when I cry according to one of my friends, I could never imagine myself crying with all these tubes hanging from my body. That's way too pathetic, obviously. I'd like to elaborate more on this but I'm afraid the person sitting right next to me might have a TB, and this is an airconditioned room, droplets, droplets.

Paranoia. They say only paranoids survive. But in this world, nobody survives. We'll all die anyway.